Thursday, April 3, 2014

Join me...Week 3

I hope your week has gone well. Grab your cup and join me for another session of digging deeper into Gods word. In my cup today I have hot chocolate with little marshmallows.

Today I am reading Genesis 24     The story of Rebekah and Isaac. In verse 5 and again in verse 12 The question "what if?" is asked. I am sure there were more of these questions than what is written. I can only imagine what would be going through my head if I were asked to go and find a wife for my master.

This is great because I have had a lot of "what if's" in my life. Really it seems to be where my mind naturally wanders in most situations.

Before getting pregnant I wondered "What if we never have a baby?" When we got pregnant I wondered, "Am I a carrier of this rare genetic disorder?" When we found out I was a carrier we wondered, "Is our baby a boy or girl? Is he affected? or will she be a carrier too?" When we found out it was a boy and that he was affected we wondered, "What will he be like? How will our lives change? Will he live? If he does, how long will he be here?"

When the doctors finally took me seriously and looked deeper into my stuffy nose they found a lump, that's when I wondered, "what if it is cancer?" When the first biopsy was inconclusive I wondered again, "what if it cancer?" When the second biopsy came back with the cancer result I wondered, "what now? I am pregnant. can we do something now? or does it have to wait?"

The thing I had to remember through all of those "what if" moments is that God was guiding every step, Just like he did with Rebekah and Isaac. God made sure that the servant was exactly where he needed to be, when he needed to be there. God made sure that Rebekah was not too tired to fetch the water. God made sure that her family knew His plan and allowed her to leave her land and go with the servant. God made everything line up perfectly so His plan could be carried out.

I have said it before and I will say it again... you are ALWAYS EXACTLY were you should be. That red light when you are running late only to see an accident just up the road. The day you call in sick to work and the World Trade towers get hit by airplanes. That package of meat you were supposed to pick up from the store but forgot, only to realize later that it has been recalled because others have gotten sick. I am sure you can think of a few too.

I know that God waited 8 years to bless us with a child because he knew we weren't ready. I know that He gave me the group home job so I was prepared for our first child and all of his needs. I know He gave us Noelie to help find my cancer. I know that God and Grandma Felix co-conspired to bring Noelie into the world on the 9th anniversary of her death. (Why, I am not sure, but the picture in my head of the two of them together is amusing) I also know that God gave us our second son so close in age to Noelie for a reason too. (My hope is to help his older brother through life but that is yet to be determined) God has been guiding my life for a long time now and I have no reason to think that he is just going to stop. Well that makes me feel better!

How has God guided you through life? Do you think you are where you should be? If you are going through a rough patch in life, do you think there is a reason? What do you think it is?

3 comments :

  1. Very well written Tracy! Makes me think.

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  2. Thanks! That is the point. I don't have it all figured out but I hope it gives people something to ponder. (Myself included)

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  3. Ponder it indeed. I have always said-don't wish your life away. Don't wish for Friday on a Monday. Don't wish for summer when it's still winter. Don't wish for children to grow up so fast. You wish your life away and you miss the moment. The moment where you are suppose to be. So live today for today. Knowing this is where God wants you to be.

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